Sorrows that seduce me
The simple madness called my dreaming
Makes me not sleep
Paralyzing, terrifying, hypnic jerks
I can't explain
The longing, wanting for the will
To make it through the fucking day
The trauma, drama, wanna
Pull my hair out in the darkness
Cry my fortress isn't worth this
Not this blindness of not knowing witness
To my distruction the obstructions
To my mind I just can't seem to make this
I try and cry and joke I'm fine
There's nothing left to find
The answers prance along
The darkened trails that line my mind
I feel the end is close but still
I try to to look inside
And fight the chaos that I've always
Tried to hide
So hear me, fear me, fuck me up
And sit upon the fence
Smoke one more cigarette
And don't regret my self defense
Alone and shaking, contemplating
All the things I've done
To help myself
'Cause nothing matters in the end
But merely empty shelves